It's been awhile, dear Blog!
Dear Blog,
I'm sorry I've neglected you for a long time. Lots have happened since my last post! The gist is that I have moved from my beloved Barcelona to one of the most exciting cities in the world, New York City! It's been tough, transitioning. I mourned my old life in Barcelona - what a fantastic city! I missed schlepping around on my moto in the gorgeous weather. I missed the beach. I missed the nightlife. I missed the good friends I made there. It's nice knowing that it's a city where I'll always feel at home with, where I know how to get around, where I have good friends ...much like Chicago...and now, NYC!
I've been through a lot this past month, emotionally. Have you ever been through a time where it seemed like everything in various sectors in life were just going ape sh*t? Anything that could possibly go wrong was going wrong for me. I've had a hard time dealing but I am so thankful that I have an awesome support network of family and fantastic friends. The saying goes that it takes a village to raise a child but the same goes for the rest of life!
You know what also has been really helpful? Writing in a journal. It has helped tremendously! It is the super cheap alternative to going to a therapist. I have been writing frantically in it. The other day, I wrote in it for an hour! The moleskine, pocket size version rocks! Yoga also has helped the last few months. I recently have been getting into it & I lurve it!!
It's tough being out in this real world again, trying to find my path in life. Everything seemed so much more structured before. I definitely took it for granted! It seemed too easy to have a job and to be settled in a city. Now, I don't know where I belong and I'm struggling to even get an interview in the field I want to work in. It's taking me a lot of faith to find the strength to not just give it all up, admit defeat, go back to Chicago and take some IT consulting job. Who knows? This might happen anyway!
I feel bad for the people that have been in my company the last month. Although I was physically there, my thoughts were a million miles away. I hated that. Not really enjoying myself around people or the places I was in.
It's nice to know that humans are resilient. I went home to Chicago a few weekends ago and that was great to immerse myself in the love of family and good friends. It's so great to be greeted with a big smile and hug. So genuine. It really lifted my spirits! So, thank you for that to the people I did get to see!
Finally, after all the traveling and emotional turmoil, my body protested. The past month, I've been to Barcelona, Amsterdam, Chicago, and Boston...all with delays or early morning flights. Ugh. I even got sick a couple of times last weekend in Boston. I was a real liability; a complete disaster (special thanks to Mia & Rose for taking care of me!)! I'm sticking here for awhile. No traveling until Thanksgiving!
I took the day off yesterday and it was just for me, me, me (as I hug myself). I rested, I ran errands, and I relaxed. I caught up on 'The Bachelor'. I went for a jog thru Central Park. I had a long, good conversation with a friend in Colombia ;)
As a result, today I feel the best that I have in awhile. The first good day in what seems,...AGES!! I had felt so broken, mentally and emotionally. It was a time where I truly felt all of my 30 years on this planet. I hope, and pray, that I can keep those feelings at bay. And I think, reaching out to my trusty, reliable blog is also a good sign that things are better.
=)
I'm sorry I've neglected you for a long time. Lots have happened since my last post! The gist is that I have moved from my beloved Barcelona to one of the most exciting cities in the world, New York City! It's been tough, transitioning. I mourned my old life in Barcelona - what a fantastic city! I missed schlepping around on my moto in the gorgeous weather. I missed the beach. I missed the nightlife. I missed the good friends I made there. It's nice knowing that it's a city where I'll always feel at home with, where I know how to get around, where I have good friends ...much like Chicago...and now, NYC!
I've been through a lot this past month, emotionally. Have you ever been through a time where it seemed like everything in various sectors in life were just going ape sh*t? Anything that could possibly go wrong was going wrong for me. I've had a hard time dealing but I am so thankful that I have an awesome support network of family and fantastic friends. The saying goes that it takes a village to raise a child but the same goes for the rest of life!
You know what also has been really helpful? Writing in a journal. It has helped tremendously! It is the super cheap alternative to going to a therapist. I have been writing frantically in it. The other day, I wrote in it for an hour! The moleskine, pocket size version rocks! Yoga also has helped the last few months. I recently have been getting into it & I lurve it!!
It's tough being out in this real world again, trying to find my path in life. Everything seemed so much more structured before. I definitely took it for granted! It seemed too easy to have a job and to be settled in a city. Now, I don't know where I belong and I'm struggling to even get an interview in the field I want to work in. It's taking me a lot of faith to find the strength to not just give it all up, admit defeat, go back to Chicago and take some IT consulting job. Who knows? This might happen anyway!
I feel bad for the people that have been in my company the last month. Although I was physically there, my thoughts were a million miles away. I hated that. Not really enjoying myself around people or the places I was in.
It's nice to know that humans are resilient. I went home to Chicago a few weekends ago and that was great to immerse myself in the love of family and good friends. It's so great to be greeted with a big smile and hug. So genuine. It really lifted my spirits! So, thank you for that to the people I did get to see!
Finally, after all the traveling and emotional turmoil, my body protested. The past month, I've been to Barcelona, Amsterdam, Chicago, and Boston...all with delays or early morning flights. Ugh. I even got sick a couple of times last weekend in Boston. I was a real liability; a complete disaster (special thanks to Mia & Rose for taking care of me!)! I'm sticking here for awhile. No traveling until Thanksgiving!
I took the day off yesterday and it was just for me, me, me (as I hug myself). I rested, I ran errands, and I relaxed. I caught up on 'The Bachelor'. I went for a jog thru Central Park. I had a long, good conversation with a friend in Colombia ;)
As a result, today I feel the best that I have in awhile. The first good day in what seems,...AGES!! I had felt so broken, mentally and emotionally. It was a time where I truly felt all of my 30 years on this planet. I hope, and pray, that I can keep those feelings at bay. And I think, reaching out to my trusty, reliable blog is also a good sign that things are better.
=)
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