Peter Pan

I was reprimanded the other day. Rosa is an IESE alumn who works for one of the professors at school. She asked me if I had a job. I meekly replied that I didn't have one. "WHAT?! How can that be possible?!" she exclaimed. I told her that since January I applied to 3 positions and that it was difficult to find positions I am interested in. She shook her head, "No no no!! I am working in something very specific so it's more difficult for me. You should have a lot more options than I have!" She went on and on for a bit. I wanted to yell back at her and say, "Listen, lady! I know, I know! I'm a grown woman! I just haven't had the time or the focus because I had visitors, I've been travelling, the Doing Good Doing Well conference, Spring Fling....". I was about to say this when she said, "You are Peter Pan! You are a kid! You just don't want to grow up!"

Shit! I was dumbstruck! She was right! I did want to stay in my little bubble of a world. Don't get me wrong - I am definitely done with taking classes but I also didn't want to get a job. It was probably the fear of trying to figure out what I really want to do in life and where I wanted to move to and the thought of starting over again in a new city and not knowing many people. It is a clear sign of Procrastination 101 due to fear of the unknown. It was the kick in the ass that I really needed.

Friday - I cranked out 3 applications and last night I sent off 3 more. Let's hope I'll hear back from some of them!!! Although I want to stay in Europe, I realized that I can't limit myself and so I've also been applying to positions in the U.S. - mostly in California and one in New York. There was 1 or 2 jobs that look interesting in Chicago but I don't think I can bring myself to apply to them yet. No offense to Chicago because you know I LURVE Chicago but I've realized that there is something in my personality that gets bored easily and am always excited about new things and exploring. I guess I really am a little kid!! Just call me Peter Pan ;)